I just returned from the Student Missionary retreat. I don't know that I have ever experienced so many highs and lows so close together. One moment, I am anxious and excited to be there, and the next I wonder what I have gotten myself into and I just want to know that it will all be okay. How does one really prepare for 9 months in another culture speaking a foreign language? The anticipation is driving me crazy. Will the kids love me? Will they respect me as their teacher? Will I be effective in communicating with them through the language barrier? Will they learn from me? Will they see God in me? I have so many questions. But yet, I wouldn't have it any other way. At the same time I want to just pack my bags and get on the next plane out of the country. But for now, I wait. That is all I can do. I sit here brainstorming, waiting for a brilliant curriculum to enter my mind. One that couldn't fail me. One that offers me the perfect balance between strictness and mentor, tough and loving, teacher and yet friend. I know that God is leading me and He won't just leave me, but it would be nice if my lesson plans could fall from the sky. I guess all I can do is pray. This is my prayer:
Be thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou be my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, thy presence my light
Be thou my wisdom, thou my true word
I ever with Thee, thou with me Lord;
Thou my great father, I thy true daughter*,
Thou in me dwelling, and I with thee one
Be my vision, Oh Lord, Be thou my vision, Oh Lord
Be the one who lights the fire
Be the one who fills my eyes
Be my vision, Oh Lord
Riches I heed not, nor man's empy praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my treasure thou art.
High King of heaven, my victory be won
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all
Be my vision, Oh Lord, Be thou my vision, Oh Lord
Be the one who lights this fire
Be the one who fills my eyes
Be my vision, Oh Lord
I would appreciate your prayers as well as any teaching suggestions. thanks so much. :)
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That is the best hymn of all time:) I have meditated on that hymn for over a year now and God has revealed so much to me through its sound doctrine and rich theology throughout it's stanzas. I have begun memorizing Ephesians chapter 1 and there is so much of that scripture throughout "Be thou my Vision". I diddo making that my prayer everyday.
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